如过当时我有的选择,我一定不会放你走!当初的那个决定让我一直到现在都无法接受..虽然已经过了好几个月了,可是我的心还是无法平静下来!想一想,忽然觉得当时的我好傻.如果一开始我就没有那么的爱你,现在的我应该没那么痛吧..很感谢你当初的背叛,它让我学会了看清一个人!!
i hate myself..sometimes i jus feel like killin myself.. i jus don noe n i jus cant bring joy n happiness to anyone.. all i can bring along is onli hurts n nth else.. i noe myself well.. i jus cant accept e fact tat i m a loser in life.. a loser who cant n don succeed in any area of her life.. i think e best way of gettin rid of rubbish like me is to throw me down e dustbin..u noe wat.. ytd i told tat guy who waited for me for yrs to get lost my life.. i don noe wat happen to me.. all i noe is that i m jus wastin his precious times n youth.. i don bear to let him wait anymore.. so i think i shall b e devil to make things clear so tat mayb e pain he suffered will reduce.. but i don expect.. i hurts him more than i thought.. haix..m i foolish?? i m jus a stupid gal who cant do things right.. i m jus a idoit who cant understand wat others is tryin to tell me.. i m a bad gal who onli noe how to show attitude to other but don noe how to care for them instead. i m sure a failure.. pls slap me tight to wake me up.. 我是世界最笨的女人!! pls don care bout me cos i m hopeless le.. haix..
i supposed to stop thinkin bout u.. but i jus don understand myself.. y mus i keep carin bout ur stuff.. y mus i still continue to miss u.. y mus i keep lookin thru ur friendster over n over again.. y mus i becos of u n rejected other again.. i realli wanna stop all my nonsense.. but i jus cant.. mayb lettin myself work all e long is e best way to let me stop missin u.. if tat is e case.. i rather work everyday n let myself feel totally tired.. so tat i wont hav e time to miss u again.. 我好想大声的对你说:"我爱你!!" 可是我却更怕听到你最诚实的回答.. 如过我想听到的答案不是来只你,谁能教教我应该这么做?受伤后的心让我无法在往前走!!
nothin gonna change my love for u.. I love u so~
